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May 02 Life in a stream..lol, ok weird title..
I decided to name my blog that because of this little crisis i had in my room just now.. I was having a head bath see??
My extremely long ritual that involves a shampoo and two types of conditioner to keep my hair soft and at the same time alive while protecting the colour..(i'm a miracle..I know..:P) So my having a hair bath does not help a water crisis..to put it subtly..otherwise..i have like 2minute baths..only my once in two days bath is loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong..
Oh well, i need to show some "Girly" chrecterestics..
today howver my drain was clogged..Uh-oh! And the water came out of my bathroom and completely convered my room..It was weirs..my dad was on the computer and he startted screaming.. about some water thing..i heard a few squeaks and went back to my rather loud and scary singing..(I was singing "Hello" By Evanescence).
Then my mom came and banged on the bathroom door asking me to open up...'cause my rather lavish bath was turning my room into a tiny lil' lake..
Then while my mom cleaned the drain..Thanks MUM! I hid and continues my singing.. After she was gone..i came out in about 15 mins...
Ah..the comfots of haing a bath..
Yanyway..I had a very very scry dream last night that i wanted to blog about..
I went back to school and apparently i didn't finish my maths homework, so my teacher was making me do my math homework..Blah!
And i started crying cause I'M DONE WITH MATHS!
YiPeEeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
But she didn't belive me and told me that i was really bad at it and that i need to e a bit more serious with the subject!
OMG..
I woke up with a serious scare..not to mention with tears in my eyes..
Yes, i'm describing a dream..I'm mad..
And dilusional to think that thjis was ome kind of prophecy..I'm NOT physic..Thank GOD!
If this were a prophecy..I might as well die now..no actually drown in my own lil' lake bedroom...
April 27 Me Back!!Hello, Hey, heyyo!
Me back from Delhi..and boy! it was soo freggin awsome!
The first day, we went out for dinner and i ate the yummiest Rashmi Kebab eva!
On monday, we just chilled out and then me and chiks...Got high on coke while are parents got drunk (actually while or moms got drunk and Its coca cola...not the drug..:D)
ok, so um...Tuesday we went to Sarojini Nagar market and Mom bought some pyjamas or something.. and i got this really really cool silver belt..Though it wasn't that cheap!
Then we picked chinks up from school and i met her friends..Ok chinks...you should have toldme what you told your friends so that i could have dressed accordingly..!
and went to ansal plaza..blew up some money...i got this really awsome top..then, then, then..yeah another coke/booz thing happened!
And o wednesday chinks took a day off and we went to subway and then to watch Eragon..(this horrid state disn't get it! Blah)
It was an amazing movie...and Saphira was HOTT!
And shrija...Your the sweetest person i've meant!
then, we went to ummm...Delhi hatt on thursday...during that terrorist thingy and we sawe thwem...it was soo cool...we saw Aaj tak people and everything...I got the cutest pair of flipflops!
Next, we went to Andhra bhavan to eat...
And then on Friday..aka today we left at 10:30 And came back..GREAT TO BE BACK!
Bu Bye! April 19 Oh well..."We were best friends now we dont even talk, you broke my heart, ripped my world apart"
Oh well, what can i do if we're not on speaking terms anymore..I still MISS YA LOADS!
So, this guy i had a crush on...dosen't like me to much..His loss i guess..
And well...My friend who liked me, jus realized that i dot like him in that way, and well he's not speaking to me..
GrEaT!
This is like Grey's Anatomy...ut i'm not as Screwed up as her..but
Gorge likes her, and she likes McDreamy...same here...McDreamy's married and soo...But when she almost sleeps with Gorge...their friend ship goes kaput!
But well here it was just that i didn't return the affection..I'm such a loser!
But he's like my friend...And just my friend...what doI do?
Oh man!..
Ok..change of topic..Let me talk about something not that Depressing..
The Best Damn Thing..
By Avril Lavigne...
Ok, I mean forst i'm gonna gloat about my brilliance..it released on the 17th and by the 18th i got the entire album on my ipod..For free!
Yes, yes..I'm a genius!
Soo at frist..I freaked out cause well...it was POP!
But then there are songs like "Runaway", "Innoscence" and ummm "When you're gone" that are GrEaT!
Of course, theres keep holding on and Hot..that i love!
But ummm...The best damn thing and err girlfriend, i Can do beeter are good to!
So all inall an ok album...but not as good the the previous ones...
April 15 *Sigh*Hello, Hello!
Its been agaes, I know!
So ummmm..not much has been happening.. I mean I'm loving my holidays!..
All i'e done is Errr...read Eragon and Eldest!
I cant belive that Murtagh is Eargons Brother...waaa...And Eragon's Morzans Son!
Ack!..how could Christopher Paolini do this to us!...interesting very interesting story..But...
OH MY GOD!..He's Morzans son!
I'm squeaking here...how can that happe..I mean i know how it happens..Its biology but, MORZANS SON!
ok, Normally i would not, I repeat would not Obsess..who am I kiddin' I always aobsess!
Murtagh!, His sorta best friend, who he was grieving, who he wished was alive and was by his side fighting becomes his rival, another rider on Galbotrox's side...Why poor Eragon?
And Saphira, only female dragon left, No pressure!
None at all!
I cant belive it..thorn and Murtagh, Will murtagh really betray his brother? His only family left?
The third book bteer come out! SOON!
You hear me Mr. Paolini?...I want the book now!
And the movie hasn't come here...I mean WHAT?!!?!?!?!
Why..I want to see the movie!
I love Keep holding o..I wanna see Saphira who looks so pretty in the movie..Oh Might Beautiful Dragon!
Not to mention Ed Speelers is soo HOT!
Totally hot..but Eragons a brown head...right?..And Arya has Raven hair..
Anyway..*Sigh*
I need to watch the movie, I'm telling ya..!
Speaking of Movies, i saw "the Lake House" and some ole' movie called "Never Been Kissed"
I'm officially a Huge Keanu Reeves fan!..
He's tall, has such a great voice and has a real nice guy look about him..I LIKE HIM!
The lake houe..is the best movie i've seen in a long long time!
its soo romantic!...Hmmmm....
Never been kissed is nice to..I like the guy who plays her teacher aka the guy she ends up with!..whats his name..yeah..Michael Varten, he looks soo ummm...I dont know..He looks a lot like someone i know..I think or i've seen in a movie..I mean he looks so familiar!
Imdb...here i come..
He's the Alias guy!..Ah, I knew that was HOTT!..Not to mention he's also the guy in Monster In Law..OMH..I love him!
Anothe rvery Hot guy, Is the dark angel fellow..Umm..Michael Weatherly, OMG he's soo HOT!!...He also come sin NCIS as my favoroite charecter..Tony Dinizzo...:D:D:D:D:D:D:D!.
But he looks better with Glasses..like in Dark Angel, I mean he looks so Hott and intelligent!..Argh! Why are people so cute!.
So many Hot guys in the world, and none for me!
Ok, people, g2g...bye bye
April 06 YaY!OMG!
I cant belive this!
Wow..I'm soo Freggin Free..
The torture is over..Wow!
I cant belive it..My exams got over like yesterday..But it just hit me!..
I'm soo F**king free!
I Swore cause i'm so happy!
No more exams..Its just sunk in...I went out with my friends yesterday and well I went out today too!..I'm getting a White gold Thumb Ring! My Mom is buying iut for me..and i got a pair of earings..I'll get my ring only on the thirteenth!
But still i'll be able to wear sumtin permenant!
WOOOOHOOOO!
Can you guys belive that i'm finally free!
TWO MONTHS!
Two freggin months!
Of freedom and reading and painting and dreaming and best of all Shopping!!
I think i'm gonna faint out of shear excitement!
I'm The Mother Fucking Princess!
YiPeEeEeEeEeEeEeE!
And i'm havin' a sleepover tonight..
Got to go...Forgot about that!
BuBye...! April 03 Ack!Will this never end?
Why?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!
I'm telling ya..Its the mental insituion for me..
ok, I'm done for life with maths and scince..right?!
So its a BIG YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! for me!
But..
But.. BUT!
History and Geography are my two best subjects other than English..
And i thought its gonna be a piece of cake..you know just revising the stuff i now by heart..
But you know WHAT!
Its not..I cant remeber anything..So.i've been working my butt off scince morning and i StIlL cannot remember what i've learnt..Whats happening to me?
Why is this world such a cruel place..Why is my brain betraying me in this extremely important hour..Hello Mr. Brain, Please please help me remember..!
Which i dont seem to able to do!
Oh God..what if i do bad-Bad-ba--ba--badly in History and Geographycause of Brain failure?
Can that happen..I guess not..But i need to do WELL! *Breathes Fire*
But--but if i dont do well..i------i--i-i-i'm gonna kill Myslef...
Oh Man, Please help me remeber...and April fifth..Come close..PlEaSe!
I'm Beggin' you!
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Bubue! April 01 EnUf!"Keep Holding On..Cause you know..We'll make it through,
"Just stay strong..cause you know i'm here for you"
OK this is Keep Holding On..By Avril LAvigne..The Eragon Soundtrack..
But no..i do not thionk i can keep holding on..I'm not gonna make it through!
I'm gonna die out of over studying..(Is that even possible)..But if it is..Thats whats gonna happen to me..
Waaaa!
I'm 15 i wanna be free and read and apint and design..dosen't anyoine understand a little gals plee?
Why do people luv mocking me?
huh?
Why me..I wanna Cry..NOOO..I cant cry cause of all this studing i have "Cant Emote Unless I show rage syndrom..
Mummy!
Save me!
You're not alone
Together we stand I'll be by your side You know I'll take your hand When it gets cold And it feels like the end There's no place to go You know I won't give in no I won't give in Keep holdin' on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Just, stay strong Cause you know I'm here for you I'm here for you There's nothing you can say (nothin you can say) Nothing you can do(nothin you can do) there's no other way when it comes to the truth So, keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through So far away I wish you were here Before it's too late This could all disappear Before the doors close And it comes to an end With you by my side I will fight and defend ah ah I'll fight and defend, ah, ah yeah yeah Keep holdin' on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Just, stay strong Cause you know I'm here for you I'm here for you There's nothing you can say nothing you can say Nothing you can do nothing you can do [ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ] There's no other way when it comes to the truth So, keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Hear me when I say When I say I believe Nothing's gonna change Nothing's gonna change destiny Whatever's meant to be Will work out perfectly Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.... La da da da, la da da da da La da da da da da da da da Keep holdin' on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Just stay strong Cause you know I'm here for you I'm here for you There's nothing you can say nothing you can say Nothing you can do nothing you can do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So, keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Ahh, ahh Ahh, ahh Keep holdin' on Ahh, ahh Ahh, ahh Keep holdin' on There's nothing you could say Nothing you could say nothin you could do nothing you could do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So, keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Oh well..I luv this song by the way..I wonder whos gonna 'be here" for me..waa..I've got to study..Bubye..!
March 29 Blah Blah!Ok..
I know there are only like 4 exams left..but i'm sick of studying..I mean what Kinda education system do we have huh?
What are they trying to do decrease population by throwing teenagers in a mental institution..Cause belive me thats whats gonna happen!
I'm gonna go mad!
No i'm already MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Waaaaaaaa!
I'm sick of exams..Yes i finished math and i wont have to ever see math again..
By the way math my 'ole frenimy..I'm not i said NOT sorry to see your back.
The worst part..I bet you cant guess the worst part..I'll tell ya the worst part..TEN subjects!
Yeah, you heard me i've got to write TEN..Yes TEN subjects..!
Oh God, Please help me become "Hiro Nakumura" from Heroes so that i can bend the time and space thing and then well..Give me self the answers and Teleport myslef into the future so that i wont have to write any more exams!!
P-L-E-A-S-E!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhhh...I've got to go and study now..
WHY?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
What have we as kids ever done..huh?, ok actually teenagers..
What have we ever done huh?..temme you temme punk!
Anyway...*sigh*..
Scince God in no mood to listen to me..Maybe the education minister is..whats his name..yes, well i'm gonna have a word with him about my mental health..
Maybe i'll go on a hunger strike against board exams.
Or maybe hmmm...I'll umm..I dont email him and swear to fall at his feet in front of National Tv?
Do you think that will change his mind about this horrible system?
Speaking of which their talking about having sex education in schools..which people say is against our culture!..I mean WHAT?!!?
Its good if you ask me cause i know the way my friends and i found out..and a little tip..the Oxford English Dictionary is not the best place to look..
lol..
Okies..gotta study..*sigh*
BuBye..
March 22 On My Way..I dont belive it!
I'm in shock!!
I cant be happening..Its- its a-a-a Its a Dream!
I'm done!
No more irritationg charecter sketches, no more 5 page long essays, no more translation, no more Grammar, no more general essays, no more proverbs, no more stupid Objectives, no more irritating answers..OMG!
NO MORE HINDI...EVER!
Nevr in my life again do i have to learn hindi!
Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
*Dances Around*..*jumps up and down*
YaY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm a hindi free person!
Life is much better all ready..And the papers were easy..!
Now i juts need to finish math ans science and i'll be foreva free of those stupid subjecys..
By the way the American Version Of Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows will be 784 pages!
I cant wait for July..Movie 5, Book 7, And Queen Of Babble In the Big City!..thats gonna be one heck of a month!
So i've got to go and study for English now..TaTa!
Bye Bye
March 21 Boards!OMG!..I did it..I wrote me first ever board exam!..
It was well LONG!
I was writing and writting and i juts kept writting..But well i took like umm..22 pages!
But well I did soooo freakin well!.
I'm so excited!
As of tomorrow when i finosh my other hindi paper..I'll be hindi free for the rest of my life..YIPEE!
Wohoooo!..I'm soo happy i could sing..ut well I wont..
oh..i'm sleepy i got up at five today and i'm kinda tierd to i've got to sleep for a while then wake up..
learn and then probably keep learning..
Oh and get some excersise also..
And listen to the mugglenet live podcast from England..Geez..Thats a lot of work to do..
*yawns*
oh i'm gonna sleep now..but i did my first eva board well!
YIIIIPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
March 19 LaaOh..Hello!
Umm..So whats up..i'm pretty bored and i'm so freakin sick pf studying..I'm gonna KILL! "Oh We're never gonna surive- UNLESS- we get a little CrAzY.."
Alanis Morissette!
But this is the bad crazy!
I HATE EXAMS!
Go away exams..with all the spirts in me..with the spirit of the ghosts haunting me..with the help of the evil one..I-I- Banish you! E-X-A-M-S!
See?..I'm losing it..not to mention its not working!
Argh!..Kill me..you'd be doing me a favor..no wait..i've got to become a famous writter and designer..I take that back i'm not gonna die..nope!
Oh i'm never gonna survive unless your crazy..No No..never gonna survie Unless we get a little!..I luv this song!
Speaking of which have you noticed that when you hear some songs at first your like "I hate it!"
But then later you like it..like SexyBack..I hated it at first!
but now i luvv it..its soo catchy!
Why hasn't this weeks mugglecast come out yet?huh? huh????
I luv it its soo frwakin awsome..I luv Andrew cause of his accent i guess..but their really funny..espicially toots..hehe
Yickes..g2g..bye
Oh No..So, today i leard history and civics and geography and economics..Thank goodness..Easy subjects..
I'm still not doing so well though..Whenever i do history model papers i loose at least 5-7 marks in the objectives..and i have to get full 70 marks there in order for me to get full marks in history..right?
My friend juts updated her space and like copletely changed the layout and stuff...I'm just scared of so many smileys..I feel like thier looking directly at me!
but it looks great never the less!
Hmm...I got a new pair of shoes yesterday..but their my ususal walking/running shoes..It looks great..its completely BLACK..YaY!!
And its Nike..All these days i never owned anything in Nike..but now i own shoesin the same brand that sponsers Nadal..YIPEEE!
but those shoes gave a shoe bite yesterday..:P
here's the marks i wanna get so that i can get my 85%..which if you look at it is not much at all..i mean i should be aiming for 90+..but with subjects like amth and scince..not very easy for me..the arty one..hehe
Math-150/200..Probably possible..
Science-170/200..Umm..i can do this if i work my bloody ass off!
Lang-160/200..Yickes..High Hopes!
English-180/200..VEry possible..but they normally dont give a person so many marks in english..but if its happened in school it can happen in the boards..
Hist/Geog-180/200..easy but i've gotta slog!
Soo umm over all how much am i getting..wait i need a calculator!..
*2 mins later*
If i do get soo much, plus umm..the hundred i got in practicals i get 940/1100 which is..85%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! brilliant calculation..to me!!
YIPEE!
I'll probably get so much..YaY!
Oh crap..g2g..Bye Bye
March 18 :D..The last few Board exam free days..
The tention is building up and i'm about to explode, I'm about to turn into a volcanno..maybe then i can meet lava girl and tell her lava is actually scarlet and NOT pink..PINK?!?!?!?!
To represent lava..Do people even have brains anymore?
I went out for dinner yesterday, The usual saturday night dinner in my parents club thing.
And i must say for the first time in a very long time i liked what i was wearing..So i took a few pics and uploaded it on hi5 and Orkut and on myspace..here..
I was wearing this really cute black skirt and black spegetti top, with this tiny blue/grren jacket like thing..It looked really nice..If i do say so myself..hehe!
I dont know why but i sorta like blogging here more than teenage gypsy now days..maybe cause i like the font and stuff..I mean i luvvv the layout..
Also people i dont really know are adding me as myspace freinds..i just accept any invite so fine..but could you people identify your self?
Soo...umm..I'm totally kinda freakin out cause well my boards are starting..and i just want them to get over.
I dont know why but blogging alkways helps me..I mean its like therapy, putting your feelings down so that the whole internet population can see.
*Gulp*
But well, none of you except a few know who i am so it dosen't matter..
Besides i cant talk to my mom and dad to much these days cause scince my grandma broke her hand their really irritable and i dont wanna disturb them to much with my prblems..so well here we are aren't we..
oh..shit..I've got to go..
Bye bye
March 17 Waaa!OMG..I'm such a horrible person..:'(
How could i have done that?
I mean dont i have a heart..I just cant stop crying..OMG..I'm such a terrible Human Being!
I dont deserve to live!
What happened was..On the way out of the park i go to everyday for a walk..I saw a really TINY kitten, it would have hardly been like 5 days old..
It was all tiny and lost so i went and pet and i asked my mom if wec ould take it home..
And her reply was No cause i'm allergic to cats..Which is true..
But i couldn't just leave it there to survive on its own so i was holding on to it and my dad who was sitting in the car started honking..
So i just left it there in this cruel world..a little kitten..to survive on its own and came to sit in the car..I cant stop crying..
This Reminds me of the time when Jerry came into my life..I remember it to clearly..in our old house for a really long time we were hearing something screeching..it turned out to be a cat that was having its kittens..
Only that cat left back one of its 5-6 kittens..So i was playing with my frienda that night and it was raining really badly..
And this little kitten was soo cold and only about a day old..it was smaller than my hand..only about 3 inches and I named him Jerry cause it was soo tiny..
I kept jerry for about a week untill my grandma who was alergic fell sick..So we had to drop it in Blue cross...How many days i cried after that..Only i know..i've always wanted a pet and i still do..
But at least I knew Jerry was safe in blue cross ulike this little kitten here...
How could i have been so heartless..I feel like i'm a killer!
I can't stop crying..that poor kitten..
I hate myself..I wanna kill myself..I dont deserve life! I dont deserve to live!
This reminds me of my pug..Or the pug i would have got..Crookshanks (named after Hermione's cat)..I wanted a pet so badly for my birthday..but i cant get one cause og my grandma being alergic..or so my mom says cause my grandma says she dosen't mind..
I hate myself! Ummm?"I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not realy to back down,
I'm still mad as hell and I dont have time to go round and round and round
Its to late to make it right,
Probably wouldn't if i could,
Cause I'm mad as hell,
Cant bring myself to do what it is you think I should"
This is the grammy winning song "Not Ready To Make Nice" by the Dixie Chicks!...If you ask me its a brilliant song aimed straight at G.W.B.
Apparently during a conference after a concert in London they spoke against bush's plans to go into Iraq (this was four years ago) and they got a lot of flack for that saying they should take back what they said..hence the documentery "Shut up and Sing!".
Ever scince then their been named the "controvertial" band. But I'm happy they refused to back down like the lyrics of this song says.. Cause its nice to have people who actually have spines..Unlike people who'd probably sat something but then when it blows up they normally say that they were "Misquoted" or their words were taken "Out of context"..I mean Whateva!..you still said that..
Once in a while though its really heartening to see someone who can speak her mind..Hats of to them and especially to Natalie Maines the lead singer.
Incidently she's married to Adrien Pasdar who plays Nathan Petrelli in the famous show Heroes..My new fav!
Its awsome if you ask me the whole there are people in this world who can do extraordinary things bit in heroes..what i like most is the fact that it has an Indian Guy in it and they show a lot of Cheenai or so they say..Though personally it dosent look like Chennai to me a person who has been living here all my life!..Mohinder Suresh..I mean how many south Indians to you know with the name Mohinder???? Anyway he's played by Senthil Ramamurthy, who was born in banglore and brought up in America..
I luv Milo Valentigmila..He also acts in heroes as the guy whith the power i think is immitation..cause when he's near his brother he can fly, but when he was near clair he could heal himself..anyway its all pretty confusing..
He also acted in Gilmore Girls as Jess..OMG..I luv that show!!
(Shrija..Jess was the guy you found Hot in Gilnore girls..)
I'm blabbering aren't i?
okies, me gonna go now..
Bye Bye
March 16 Humph!Did you know that the author os Eragon wrote this book when he was 15?!?!
The year he finshed high school!
I mean..WHAT?!?!?!
Am I the only human here..he was fifteen, he's published both Eragon and eldest and he's jut i dont know about um..1983 so 24? now..
Thats not fair!..He's 24 a successful writter and his book has already been made into a movie which was equally as good!
And Avril Lavigne sang the theme song!!!!
Nothing in this world is fair..When am i gonna publish my book? when is going to be made into a movie and When is either Avril or Evanescence or DAUGHTRY sing the theme/ soundtrack for it?!?!
Gosh!..I feel so old, i'm fifteen for crying out loud and i'm not even famous yet!
When willI finish my book?..
And when am i gonna be the famous designer who no celebrity weather Indian or otherwise can resist!
When Am i gonna be better than an ARMANI??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!! or Dolce and Gabana!!??
Why is my life such a mess!
I promised my self that in another 10 years i would have released at least two fashion lines in the Paris and New York fashion wekk..which by the way would be a hit! and open my own botique in Paris! (is that the right spelling for botique or is it boutique?..And i wanna publish a book?!? sheesh!)
I'm tring to think of everythingother than exams so i've been thinking about this!
I mean WHY!.. According to karma good thing are supposed to happen to ggod peaople..Why dont good things ever happen to me?!?!
I mean this world is not fiar!..I have to write board exams next week!.again exams..My life is so totally not fiar!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Fine..! If you wanna be unfiar fate..then fine i'll fight fire with fire and and not belive in you anymore..
(oh Please dont make anything bad happen to me because i said that..ok?)
Ok, god if do exsist ( which i dont dought, maybe i do..Oh crap..I have no idea..I dont know) You'll stop these cancel these exams this year and make me a famous teen (you hear it teen!!!!!!!!!!!!!) designer and writter!
Ha!..BuBye! Gee..Nope, Cannot do this anymore!
This is my last "free" friday before I start the exams that might just change my life..
Please help me do well in math..and pass!
The pressure is on and so is alergies from stress, I'm having trouble breathig even thinking about the exam, not to mention Nightmares.
Half the time i'm waking up in the middle of the night because i've had dream about something like me doing badly in this exam or sometjing..
Yesterday afternoon when i was trying to sleep (cause i was tierd and sick of studying)..My drem went as follows-
I was walking to my school to see my results, And the i saw them and i had got an over all of 33%..I fail!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When i see that i faint..but i wake up later in my house and my parents aren't talking to me cause of my horrible result..
When we go to my new school, the dont let me in cause I've not done well enough..I mean duh..I supposedly flunked!
When i go back to my present school, they say that i can stay cause i've been studying there for sooo long, but they say that i'll have to be in a specail class and do the math group with the teacher from hell!!!
I black out!
when i wake up well..i'm really at home and i cant breathe..then i realize i'm at home and i've not yet written the board exam!
*breahtes deeply*
Yesterfay night, similar dream..
I do that badly that both my new and my old school dont take me!!!!!!!!!!!
And i have to be home schooled!
Oh.My.God!
I'm telling ya ..i'm realy to kill myself..
This is really freaking me out and i dont know what to do!
I need to get a minimum of 80% which i dont think is possible..
Save my dear dear dear dear GOD!
I've got to go!
Bye..:'( March 14 Exams!Exams!..Argh!
I cant take it anymore...i'm sick of studying! I'm only 15, i have a life (though nothing very interesting) I wanna have fun, I wanna read books, I wanna paint, I wanna Go Shopping! But I cant do any of this stuff with these stupid board exams i'm having. And this idiotic shit hole i call my present school, Isin't making things any easier for me..:'(
WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Why us poor 15 year olds? This is such a useless country when it comes to the education system, I mean we follow the same system as the brits, so why not follow their age system to?..We start school at 3 and they at 5 so their like 16-17 in the tenth grade but were fifteen!
I'm gonna go mad with all this pressure!
No, Actually i'm already craking and i think i'm going into depression.
And of all the people i'm not very ggod at math or science and well, during these study holidays i'm in the mood to do everything other than studying!
I just cant stop drawing or dreaming or reading, the only subjects iu wanna learn are history, geography and English..But i'm soo completely terrible at math and science.
Luck has it i wont be doing math and scince next year, but i still have wo do it ths year, true thers only like amonth left, a one month..ONE MONTH! more of studying..I'm gonna kill myself at the end of it!
SeRiOuSlY!
Not to mention i hate this school, i'm so unhappy here. one stupid mistake and we brought our ipod to school and the next thing you know your getting screamed at saying "The founders of this school will be ashamed of you". I mean What!?!.. We didn't steal, we didn't cheat, all we did was bring ut ipod to school and this happened almost a year ago and the principle still looks at us like were a bunch of criminals..What kind of school is this? They should be shut down saying their mentally abusing and ruining the lives of young kids, I mean ever scince then i feel like i'm a criminal, like i did something that wrong! I bet a person who killed someone wouldn't feel as bad as we did durong that time!
I still hate to think about cause my heart always skips a beat.:@
The only light at the end of the tunnel is my new school which is most probably gonna be great!
I can paint more, read more and for the first time in my life Be happy to go to school!, not to mention look forward to it and even ahve FUN! Which in this school is like a prisoner wanting a hotel suite instead of a prison bed!
I'll tell you if theres one school in the world i'd like to run away from its this school, To much of anything is good for nothing..like their dicipline methods..Gosh! Not to mention the way they think of you if your not good at math..I mean thats not the only subject in the world you know.
They even traumatise those who dont do that well by calling them "Weak Students" i mean no ones weak untill you make them out to be, they just might not have an aptitude for the subject, dosent mea you call them week!
*Takes a Deep Breath*
All I can say is I'm glad I'm leaving..
I'm looking forward to leaving the most!
Thank heavens for finally showing me the light and helping me leave not to mention the other school for letting me in and saving me from the mental institution!
March 12 Err...Hiya..,
I've just been listening to DAUGHTRY..and in my opinion the best band Eva!!!..I still think that Chris Daughtry should have won American Idol, and not Taylor Hicks not thats theres anything wrong with him, but its just that Chriswas better at least well.. he has done really well for himself with this Awsome band and one of the best albums ever!
I like the "Its Not Over" Video but "Gone" and "Home" are my favorite v\songs..CHRIS ROCKS!
Speaking of which, Avril Lavigne's new single "Girlfriend" really scared me at first cause i thought that she had really lost her 'unique' selling point but now that i've hears it loads of times before..Its not that bad..
My favorite Band Of all time is Evanescence, their the best! I love the music, its soo Sad and scary and negative, And i luv Amy Lee's dreesing its soo Victorian, with a gothic twist to it..I would really say her fashion sense is bloody Fantastic!
Evanescence's new album (well its not that new anymore but wateva) "The Open Door" is really lovely, Call Me When your Sober and Lacrymosa are my fav's but all the songs are equally haunting and great..:D
Speaking of Video's I like all Of Avril's Videos and "Savin' Me" by Nickleback..Their a great band, but that video is just Superb..Soo FREAKIN AWSOME!
i'm pretty much babbeling..yeah I guess thats what so much math does to a person..Subjects like math and scince are really harmful for Arty brians like me..I mean seriously, why do i need to know all that stuff when i have my Imaginaion and the world of fantasu around me?..Can anyone answer that question for me?
UhOh..Speaking of which i've got to get back to studying..Soo.Catch ya next time..
Bye..XD February 27 Hello,
I've been reading loads of book recently..well casue anythings better than studying for exams!
I Just finished reading the Princess diaries..Its an amazing set of books and one can worship them as the TENNAGE BIBLE!
Its So funny...i was laughing my pants of throughout the series..Though personally i dont like how the last book ends..I mean Why did she have to break up with Micheal..But at least she hooks up with J.P (kinda')..And Lily and her I mean!! thats not FAIR! I liked the whole best freinds foreva thing..And i hate it when it breaks or wateva..!
But basically i think i'm really crazy that way..i mean I've only read half the books i've read cause the movie's coming out..Like Angels and demons and The Da Vinci Code..Memoirs of a Giesha..Princess Diaries..(though i've read it WAYY after the movies were out..I dont like how the "royal Engagment" ends)
Harry Potter..
My fav all time series..I'm a HUge huge fan..i basically know the books by heart!..its awsome and I hate the fact that Harry might die in book 7..Waaaaaaaa *sobs*..why kill him?!?!?!?..Anyway i guess we'll find out weather he dies or not on July 21st..Soo freakin' far away!
And Ron and Hermoine better hook up cause after all these more than subtle hints i think they better hook up and Not break up.. As for Harry And ginny..I hope they finally hook up to!..something like Seth and summer in the end of the OC..I mean they get Married..why not Ron and Hermione and Harry and Ginny?
yeah, and like Mugglenet says Voldemort should either be made to live as a Muggle janiyor or be killed! *Evil laugh*..But will someone lead the death eaters after voldemorts demice?
Is Snape Good or Bad..I think he's good cause of the end of HBP..where Harry notices that Snape seems to be in as much pain as the Dog in the burning hut..Is it because he's just killed Dumbledore? I think so I mean maybe they had like an Unbreakable vow or something? That if it comes down to this Snape kills Dumbledore to remain a Spy for the order?
Why not?!?!
Equus..Dan Radcliffe is a Brillaint Actor!..I mean OMG! look at the job he's doing..Not to mention he's Naked..A treat for all us girls! wow!
Ok..Soo.i'll be heading out now..catch up with ya later..
Bye Bye |
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