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October 08 Title under Thoughts.I'm tired.
I have a bad throat.
I bunked school today!
I got back from camp yesterday.
My sister took advantage of the fact that I was at camp to throw stuff at me on facebook. While I'm hanging off a mountain somewwhere in the Himalayas, its lovely to know that my friends took advantage of that and decided to attack me with their wolves! *hmph*
I don't think I'm going to be able to go away after school, to NID or Pearl or whatever it is. This might sound really pathetic to you, but its true, I'll be to homesick.. I'll die.
I'll miss my mom and dad so much. I'll miss my room, my bathroom.
My computer (Gilbert), My shelf filled with all the books that I've read over and over again, so much so that I can quote from them ANYtime, ANYday. I'll miss my house. I'll miss the mess my room's always in, I'll miss my dad's constant nagging. I'll miss my home-cook-food!
I'll miss my friends.
I'll miss the life that I have here. I'll miss it all.
I know that I will have to go, if I need to make that wild dream of mine actually come true.
I know that there's no point hoping of being a famous Fashion Designer if I study in some mediocre design school in Chennai.
I need to do whatever it takes to make my dreams come true.. 'cause at the end of the day, dreams take you to the next one. Somehow, I need to find the courage in me to be able to make this huge transition in my life.
After all, its not that far away. We're already in October of 2007, a year and few months more and I'll be applying to these insitutions, and to make sure I succeed, I need to make sure I have the confidence inmyself, that I can.
On a rather lighter note, I've changed my layout, it reflects my current mood. Later on, I might get horrified at the thought of having a purple-ish/pink layput ad change it, untill then.. this one remains.
The past ten days have been very enlightening. For one, I've realized, no matter how much I thought that I'd be able to make friends in my new school, even though I thought I'd made friends, its never going to be the same. I was a GoodShe for 12 years and the friends I made while I was there, will always be my true friends.
I'm still very awkward with my friends at Lady Andal, knowing for one that I can truly never break into their groups, nor will it ever be the same for me.
But, I can try. If they're willing to let me.
After all, EVERYthing is trial and error, innit?
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